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[08 May 2006|11:22pm] |
livejournal kind of sucks.
it's soooooooo 2001.
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| a little (crappy) poem |
[11 Apr 2006|10:55am] |
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i like saginaw.
i like spring.
i like not drinking.
i really love detroit and have decided that i'm going to clean it up. taking the train through detroit is so depressing... that city needs some lovin'
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[05 Apr 2006|10:13am] |
i miss living in lincoln square.
fuck roscoe village.
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| WE NEED A ROOMMATE! |
[19 Mar 2006|10:59pm] |
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seriously....
april 1
2 story house in roscoe village (chicago)
cat friendly
free laundry!
awesome roommates
close to transit
garage & yard!
$450/mo + utilities
no slobs or free loaders!!!
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[08 Mar 2006|11:49pm] |
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florida was fun. pictures and stories soon... too tired now.
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| shut-up about that, you gimme that belt |
[26 Feb 2006|12:22am] |
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went to michigan. saw the family, melissa, kevin, josh, erica, & tony. talked to zack. went to pistons game (screamed so much i lost my voice, got drunk, pistons whooped the pacers), went to gameworks (10$ all-you-can-play cards & 2$ domestic drafts, pulled a muscle playing air-hockey). shopping with my sister. broke down and bought an ipod. had amazing few days. came back to hell.
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[04 Feb 2006|10:28pm] |
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i really want to go to the UK.
once i get my passport i'm applying to be a flight attendant with united airlines. that means i'll have to stay in chicago for a little while at least... until i go back to school. but it also means i'll be able to fly to the UK, and everywhere else for very cheap or free.
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[02 Feb 2006|08:23pm] |
| Your Love Life Secrets Are | 
Looking back on your life, you will have a few true loves.
You're a little scarred from your past relationships, but who isn't?
You prefer a quirky, unique person to be your lover. You're easy going about who you're with, as long as they love you back.
In fights, you love to debate and defend yourself. You logic prevails - or at least you'd like to think so.
Getting over a break-up doesn't take long. Easy come, easy go. |
uhhh i don't know what this means really. whatever though. love is for babies. i think i'm probably not going to florida after all. that sucks. oh well!
someone should hang out with me soon.
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[27 Jan 2006|08:55am] |
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i had this weird dream that i was running from something. there were 4 of us, but yoshi is the only other one who had a face. we kept running and running and running. and then we got caught by this office dude and they were holding us there until someone came to get us but we waited forever. yoshi bought a king size twix and gave us each one because we hadn't eaten in a while and then i went to go to the bathroom and the bathroom was set up weird. and then we busted out kept running and then i woke up. i kind of liked it.
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[21 Jan 2006|05:44pm] |
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modest mouse... ON VINYL |
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ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, and i forgot to say. i finally, after waiting for-ev-er, got a new stylus for my record player. soooooo, that means i'm listening to my new (old) modest mouse 45s. (: and the russians are coming over tonight. you should too, so i don't go insane.
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[21 Jan 2006|04:35pm] |
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foo fighters. |
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yesterday was a good day off. i got this new 5lb medicine ball with handles and a resistence band so i worked out a bit at home, which was nice because no one was home... which is rare. so i did that and cleaned a little bit and kind of relaxed. then ron got home and richie and we were waiting for stacy to arrive from NYC so we got some sparks, which really does taste like battery acid but for some reason i LOVE it. i drank 3 and was pretty drunk and then when stacy got here she made us drinks - southern comfort, lime juice, cranberry juice, and amaretto. pretty tasty. then i called matt and he was out having a cigarette on the porch so i decided it'd be a good idea to walk over and join him. i got there and there were discussions of favourite songs of all time and whether or not frank black is a good vocalist, etc. when i decided to go home, kevin, lee, and matt decided to come with me. so we got here, i put some dry pants on and then when they went to leave kevin asked if i'd help him down the stairs. they were pretty icy at that point from all the rain/snow so i did and on the very last step i slipped and fell right on my back. didn't hurt then, but it did when i got up this morning. oh man, so i've got a nice combination of soreness from doing 39384757 situps with my medicine ball and falling like a retard on my steps. not to mention the large bruise on my bottom. it's like, everytime i drink something happens to make not ever want to drink again. awesome.
so, back to work tomorrow. 50 hours next week. sweeeeet.
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| just sayin'... |
[20 Jan 2006|05:14pm] |
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i probably hate everyone you know.
and that's probably why you hate me.
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| because i'm bored. well, yeah... bored. |
[12 Jan 2006|04:01pm] |
YOU
1. Name:
2. Date of birth:
3. Where you live:
4. What makes you happy:
5. Currently listening/the last thing you listened to:
6. Do you read my journal?:
7. If yes, what makes it especially good or bad?:
8. An interesting fact about you:
9. Are you in love/do you have a crush at the moment?:
10. Favourite place to spend time:
11. Favourite lyric:
12. The best time of the year:
RECOMMEND
1. A film:
2. A book:
3. A band, a song, or album:
PLUS
1. One thing you like about me:
2. Two things you like about yourself:
3. Look at my friends-list and tell what you like about one of our mutual friends:
4. Put this in your journal so that I can tell you what I like about you.
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| the victim's thrill |
[09 Jan 2006|11:26pm] |
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i colour my hair when i'm feeling depressed or out of control. tonight, for the third time in one month, i coloured my hair. i like it. but how long will that last really? for two weeks? two days? we'll see. it sounds silly, and maybe it is, but i think it's something more psychological. i can't sleep. normally i'm struggling to keep my eyes open by 11:30 but tonight i'm wide awake. i slept until noon, but that's normal too (on days off) so i don't know. i'm really a mess lately. i've always been a mess. all i do is feel. i can't bring myself to turn my emotions in to thoughts because with that might come an understanding of what's really wrong and then i might have to face it. i'm not ready for that. i've never been ready for that. so instead i just block out negative feelings so that i don't have to think about them. i pretend that everything is okay until i really believe i'm okay for a while. then the whole cycle starts again. here i feel like i'm just existing and not doing anything really. i hate that and it makes me want to die. like, what's the point if i'm not doing anything? that's not a suicide note and i'm not going to slit my wrists in the bathtub or anything, but i'm just saying. i can't commit to anything... at all. not relationships, not what i'm going to wear that day, not where i'm going to go to school, what i'm going to do with my life, what i'm going to eat for breakfast, where i'm going to live... nothing. it's starting to get old and frustrating to the point where i just don't want to do anything because then i won't have any decisions to make.... nothing to consider and nothing to think about. but then i end up just existing.
what is wrong with me?!
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| a little ditty |
[07 Jan 2006|10:35pm] |
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so what's new?
hating my roommates (oooooold news)
new bedding
plans for a roadtrip
plans for ann arbor
rotting my brain
reading books
missing everything
what's new with you?
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[04 Jan 2006|06:23pm] |
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PLEASE!!!!!! anonymous person who's known me forever TELL ME WHO YOU ARE! it's driving me crazy!
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[02 Jan 2006|07:47pm] |
dear anonymous livejournal commenter,
i know the rules say to comment anonymously. but please reveal yourself. i am very curious. contact me in one of a couple ways including:
+sending a text message to my cell phone at 420-7637. before dialing that you should include the area code corresponding to my hometown in michigan.
+commenting to another entry
+sending a message on AIM to delayedapologies
+sending an e-mail to frayingalltheends@Hotmail.com
thank you.
love,
amanda
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| yay christmas. |
[01 Jan 2006|08:50pm] |
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i think having an official "new year's resolution" is silly because i have yet to actually do those things. however, i'm also one who thinks that goals are a good thing so here are mine starting right now:
+eat less crap and more good food
+exercise lots more, lose weight, "beach bikini by my birthday"
+watch less tv, read more books
+give blood as often as possible
+call my family at least twice a week
+save lots of money for school
+pay off bills
oh, and if you didn't know... hol and i are going to U of M (if we both get in) and moving to ann arbor. i'm excited about that.
so if you didn't hear about my christmas vacation to home yet, it went a little like this...
( drumroll please )
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